I remember when I was working (it didn’t matter which job, this was pretty universal) that there would be days when I would wake up and want nothing to do with my “usual day.” I felt willing to pay any amount of money just to switch my life with someone else’s for the day. I hadn’t felt that way in motherhood until this morning. (Just as a note, I did not want to switch my child with someone else’s, I just wanted SLEEP). When you have a newborn, you’re almost too sleep deprived to know that you’re sleep deprived, just cracked out enough that you don’t know how bad it hurts. As Camper gets older, when he doesn’t sleep, it hurts. Yesterday was a big long cry it out day- which rolled into a big long cry it out night. He’s getting quite the attitude, and I think I’m learning when he’s being ‘tudy and not just needy. And last night he was full of ‘tude.
I ended up falling asleep and waking up again at some point, John was getting ready for work, and Camper started crying AGAIN. Seriously, kid! What’s the issue? I feel bad to say that he didn’t get a lot of cuddles from me this morning. He did get a diaper change, and he did get a big warm bottle, and he did get to lay propped on a pillow next to while I turned the other way and closed my eyes again. He ate his breakfast, and we went downstairs to make John’s lunch. At that point I remembered those mornings when I really didn’t want my job anymore. Realizing that this is a job I don’t actually want to give up, even if I could, I decided to just be busy instead. I spent some time looking out of Camper’s bedroom window. We like to watch the trees wave in the wind and see what kind of day it is, and he likes to chew on the back of the chair while we look. Then he played on the floor with some toys while I organized his clothes and changed his bedsheets. Then I cleaned my room up while he played on the bed and watched channel 2. When he napped I napped, which kind of helped with the less than fabulous sleep I got last night. After that we went out with Lala to get groceries (he loves the cart) and to return the bathing suit from Hades that I ordered with my Lands End giftcard. Free stuff gone awry, I tell you.
After that I had some alone time while I ran out to get John some “business casual” attire for his new job. We don’t want him to wear his good suit pants out at a job when he can wear Dockers. Then it was home again for some Strawberry Spinach Salad (thanks, Mom) and some cuddles from the Bubbs, who apparently still loves me. I’m currently listening to him yell, something about not wanting to nap…but seriously. He NEEDS it. Hopefully he’ll sleep better tonight. But if not, there’s always naptime.
Tags: Bubbs, motherhood
