So John is gone for a few days. He is away at school, here, completing the first of four residencies for his master’s degree. I’m excited for him, I’m jealous that he gets to stay there. I bet he can hear the ocean at night if he opens his windows. If there’s a storm I’m sure it’ll be awesome. I hope he learns good stuffs. And I hope he blogs some pretty pictures. I didn’t realize how jealous I was about the actual LOCATION that he’s staying in until just now. And I just realized last night, as well, that not only did I lose my husband for 10 days…but also my access to the Mac. Sigh.
While I was walking into church this morning, someone asked how I was. I said, “Good, tired. And now with John gone, probably more so.” I can’t remember the exact wording, but she replied and joked that maybe I’d get MORE rest without a husband AND a baby to take care of. I said, “Not really, John’s really more of a giver than a taker.”
And I realized how true that is. I mean, for instance, without him around today we really had to squabble to find out who was going to provide the family with some baked goods today. (I think my Mom did it, in the end.) And who is going to make our bed for the next 10 days? He does it so much better than I do.
But with all seriousness, I have realized that John does a lot to help me rest, and relax, and he ALWAYS listens to what I have to say. Always. I don’t know if this is rare among husbands, but I think maybe him going away will help me to appreciate even a little bit more all he does for me. Maybe it’ll do the same for him, assuming there is no one on Enders Island to cut his apples up or eat the first bite of his food.
I guess separation can be good, but I hate it. I just need to keep busy and make sure that I’m not wallowing in missing him, and I think the time will pass by quickly. I feel dorky that I so sad about 10 measly days, but seriously, I like that guy. I like having him around.
In other news, I was having my weekly (heh…every other day is more like it) freak out about what we need to do to get ahead, to take care of ourselves, etc. John went and got one of his journals, and inside was a list. On the list were things he was meant to do when Camper first arrived. They all had to do with moving out here, finding jobs, starting school, etc. Although things did not work out quite as well planned, there wasn’t one thing on the list that couldn’t be crossed off. And I remember that list being pretty daunting those many months ago. So we’re making progress. Where he is right now proves it, and I feel very hopeful about our future right now. Very hopeful indeed.
Tags: hope and school stuff
Hang in there Erin! I hope the next 10 days fly by…being a single parent is SO HARD, and you’re right, it makes us appreciate our husbands a little more.
And seriously, he makes your bed? So jealous. So. Jealous.
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