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Parenting Fail, Movie Edition

Wednesday, September 29th, 2010

Just in case you were wondering how things are going over here, they’re pretty good.  Insanely busy.  As in, not getting enough sleep not getting my reading done preparing for the class I teach just in time to teach it and Cy still coming first when I’m home and he’s awake so as not to screw him up later in life super busy.

In that vein, I thought I’d share how I traumatized him last week.

Example Number One:

I decided to mess with a good thing, and deviate from the fact that he rarely watches anything except for Sesame Street, the Fresh Beat Band, and Finnias and Ferb and Cars.  I got this classic from the library, remembering it fondly from my younger days.  About half an hour in I realized that this is possibly one of the most disturbing movies of all time.  A family of Russian mice gets separated on the boat over to America, leaving their son alone to find out that there are, indeed, cats in America.  Cy just kept asking, “Ok? Ok?”  And actually, no, Fivel wasn’t ok.  He was separated from his family in a new country.  And it was kind of creepy and sad.

I then switched to our other library find:

Elmo visits the firehouse.  Which should actually be called, “Elmo is in a restaurant that catches on fire, kind of, and it scares the shitake out of him, leaving him a shakey, nervous little puppet for most of the movie.”

Highlight: Seeing him slide down the fire pole.  ‘Cause what two year old should miss out on the inspiration to throw himself down the sliding pole at the park?  Because it looked so easy?  Because Elmo can do it?

Yeah.

Better luck next time.

Or, back to Cars and Nemo.

I shall leave you with this.

Saturday, September 25th, 2010

…until I can find time to write the post about the MONTH of birthday-ness.  The three parties.  Culminating in exhaustion, new toys to play with, and appreciation for friends and family.  And my son who is two.  Did I say exhaustion?

Cy Turns Two.

Saturday, September 18th, 2010

Somewhere between getting in the car tomorrow morning and arriving at church, Cy will turn 2.  We’ll be passing the library and it will be exactly two years since I was pushing that child out of my body.

Two years since I saw his mad little face for the first time.

two year away from this.  For which I am so grateful.

But also two years away from so many firsts.  Like the first time in his carseat.  Yes, he’s grumpy again.

Remember when he used to put his finger to his mouth like he was thinking?  I had almost forgotten…

Two years later and just like when I was pregnant and he was the only one out of the two of us with any nutrition from the food I ate, he still takes everything I have.  And I am still so happy, so grateful, so eager to give it to him.

Lots of things are turning here in the Berkshires.

The leaves are turning yellow (a color which Cy can identify, and also say clearly, to my surprise) and red and lots of other colors.  The air is turning cold and wet.  And the days are turning darker shorter. And busier.  So much busier.

And my littlest boy, my baby, my only child is turning two years old.

And instead of thinking about how sad it makes me (a little sad) I’m thinking about how awesome it is.  That we can have a party.  That we had 15 friends to invite.  That my house will have 10 2 year olds in it next week.  That he can remember their names from playdates and likes to play with other people now.  That he can walk and talk and likes to go on the potty.  Sometimes.

I love so many things about who he is.  Like how he saw me wearing my new baby niece over a week ago (yay for Becca letting me borrow her baby and her wrap!)(I think he saw me in the Babyhawk, though.  I had fun playing babywearing.)

and then proudly wear a baby of his own.

(He doesn’t look excited, but he was saying “Cheeeeesseeeee.”)

He is so helpful.

and so proud.

He loves trains.  And when I say love, I mean LOOOVVEEEESSSS trains.

and no matter how big he gets, how many words he can string together, how many colors he can recognize or how many minutes he can wait for his turn in gymnastics class…and no matter how many foods he rejects…for that matter…

Cy is still my baby boy.

Forever.

Love you Cy.

Happy Birthday.

(PS: About this time two years ago I was finishing up either Legally Blond II (it was on reruns all summer on cable) or Fiddler on the Roof, eating tons of Reeses Cups and Lays Potato Chips, and ignoring John timing my “uncomforable moments” and moving my bags to the car while my Mom watched the chaos.  And warned again the Peanut Butter Cups.  Which we saw again later.  Ahhh, memories.)

Not a happy feeling.

Monday, September 13th, 2010

I just tried a Netti Pot.

And I’m done.

I achieved a nice continuous flow into one nostril and out the other.  And felt like got knocked over by a huge wave and was drowning on sea water while being forced to lean over a cold sink.

Not awesome.

What the crap are people thinking?

Although my right nostril-area does feel pretty good.

But it tasted awful.  Do you use a Netti Pot? And if so, do you use the sea-water-maker packets that make me flashback to undertows and jelly fish and sand in my bathing suit?

I might cry now.

Whaaaaattt?

Friday, September 10th, 2010

Also, I wanted to share this with you. Imagine being in the bathroom, doing your business, opening the trashcan to find a tiny man staring at you.

It was weird.

And is making me reconsider this whole re-use shopping bags thing.

I’m tooooo tirrreeeddddd.

Friday, September 10th, 2010

I just wanted to whine a little bit.

That is all.

I wish someone would have told me that being a grownup means that sometimes you have heartache even when good things are happening.

Tuesday, September 7th, 2010

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing, because I built my life around you.  But time makes you bolder, children get older, I’m getting older, too.

So tomorrow I start school again, full time.  I will be away from my child on a regular schedule, more often than just teaching piano, which I still do, and on top of teaching a class at a school in town.  And I feel so very confused by it all.

That’s not true at all.

I’m not confused.  When I found the school and the program I’d be attending, it felt like such the right choice that I wondered why I had never seen it before.  And when I called to inquire about the possible teaching position and then got the job, it was miraculous.  And when I see my kids playing piano, even after a long summer vacation, and feel proud of them, I know that teaching piano is a good addition to my life, too.

And yet, there will be less time.

Less time to be at home full-time, which I think, in all honesty, I would love to do.

And I think, also, that if I were home full-time, forever, I would also miss out on some OTHER things that I really want to do.

I want both SO BAD. Ack.

I’m excited to be Erin again.  Although I’m still so amazed to wake up every day and be Cy’s Mommy.  (Don’t you love the first time another child calls you that? “Cy’s Mommy?  Can I share his snack, too?” or “Cy’s Mommy?  Can we come over and play again tomorrow?”)  I’ve cried every night for three days thinking about getting in the car and driving off to another part of my life, one that I don’t share with my son or anyone else.  One where people might not even know that I’m a mother.  That they might not even see me in that role that has over-rode (over-ridden?) every.other.role. I’ve had in the last two years.

But I can’t deny that I felt (STILL FEEL) so much peace when I thought through this decision early this summer.  When I prayed about it and when I applied and fought for it and when I arranged my schedule so precariously and packed this September so full that I am actually scared of what it will feel like.  And then added some more.

He’s almost two, and I guess it’s as good a time as any to get going on some more of my personal needs and goals, and work towards more stability for our little family as well.

But I’m seriously thinking about pushing bedtime back half an hour (15 minutes?) so that I won’t miss it.  Even if he does choose other people to read him stories, I kind of like the idea of being an option.  You know?

Ummmmm, no.

Wednesday, September 1st, 2010

A list!

1) Whenever I (or anyone else) asks Cy anything he says, “Ummmmmm, no.”  It’s kind of funny actually.

2)  We brought him in for his first dentist visit today.  She said nothing about the pacifiers.  She did say his teeth look excellent, that it’s time to use grown-up toothpaste and floss, and that he can graduate to the chewable flouride tablets if he’ll eat them.  All in all, I felt very happy that his teeth are healthy and that he let her brush them. (He cried when she flossed him, but seemed to zen out when she brushed his teeth.)  When I got home I was talking to my Mom about how really, Cy lets us brush his teeth just fine.  And then she said, “Erin, do you not remember saying to him as you brushed his teeth as soon as he got them, ‘You can cry, but this is a battle you are not going to win.’”  She also reminded me that I told her when she watched him at night, “Please brush his teeth.  He will cry, but that just helps you get the back ones.”  Apparently it wasn’t always this easy, and our consistence has paid off.  Thanks for reminding me of all our efforts, Mom!  Also, Cy loves his spinny Thomas toothbrush.  Choo choo!

3)  Last night when I was feeding Cy his second dinner of Cheerios (he refused Enchiladas earlier) he saw the front of the box, and said “Love! Cute! Heart!”

4)  For some reason around dinnertime Cy has started asking for “Gabba Gabba!” I would like to know who introduced my child to this show so that I can force him or her to come over and watch it with him.  It’s like being on crack.  But with responsibilities.

5) John and I have started running again.  And taking humongous vitamin packs.  And trying to get better (more consistent) sleep.  It feels really good.  Let’s just hope no one gets another respiratory infection.

6) We’re going to paint the bathroom tomorrow.  I am not looking forward to it.

The end.