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Turn Left at the Tee-Kai

Wednesday, September 28th, 2011

Awhile ago Cy started using a non-sensical word for everything. “Tee-kai.”  It was during his Brother Bear phase, so I think it’s spin off of one of the character’s names “Kenai,” but still.  EVERYTHING. IS. A. TEE. KAI.

“Hey Mommy! I making a tee-kai!” (Pile of pillows on the floor.) That made us think he MEANT teepee. But then, “Hey Mommy! Look! A tee-kai!” became two grapes speared with a chop stick. Still the most mysterious, was Tee-Kai (notice the capital letters) who had “brown skin and white hair.” “He’s my friend!” Or this morning, when Cy told me, “I know how’a get to Music School! Go left at the Tee-Kai!”

It’s lasted for almost a month now, maybe more! So I’m pretty curious to see how this tee-kai business turns out!

I still owe the Internets some serious pictures of my child during his birthday celebrations.  So very sorry! Life here has been outrageously busy.

I’m not one for giving out my schedule online- but seriously people, from Saturday night through Wednesday is brutal.  Church is way crazy busy on Sunday, and then I rocket through the beginning of the week into a late night at school on Tuesday night when all my homework is due (there goes Monday night).  I’m at work in my new position M-F, and teach on Wednesday afternoon. I have to  catch up on sleep/running schedule/housework Thursday and Friday, just to fall behind on the school work… and it all starts again.  It wouldn’t be as crazy, I don’t think, if Cy were sleeping normally.  Lately, though, he’s been up a lot, crying at night, and (GASP) sleeping in our bed.  I always freak out when this happens- but then by the time I get a good “approach” in place for how to “address” the “sleeping issues,” he’s over it.  It happens every six months or so- and then it’s over.  So let’s hope he’ll settle in soon.

To be fair, the kid’s got a lot of change going on in his life!  I’m working around 30 hours a week and he started preschool (two mornings a week).  John now goes into work early, I go in later, and so sometimes I’m home for dinner sometimes not. I’m also back at school- which means I don’t get home until 10 or 11pm one night a week.

All new stuff.

But I’m holding on to the “happy.”  I know this will all work out, we just have to get our groove back, yo.

Groove.

I keep kind of “checking in” with this decision for me to be working again- but it’s kind of twofold right now.  a) I LOVE WORKING and b) we need me to work if we ever want to get a handle on those pesky (not little) students loans and you know…get on with life. And the sneaky third reason:

c) plusican’thaveababyrightnowidon’twanttotalkaboutit.

I came home from work yesterday after picking Cy up at school.  (He had a fire drill, he did great! Such a big boy.) As I turned onto my street I noticed that the town had painted new yellow lines down the center of the road.  At first I was offended- the bright, sharp yellow edges stood out too much.  Totally in my face.  Completely butting into this whole “natural color scheme” thing we had going on.  But then I realized that it’d probably help, you know, keep people on their side.

So that’s what I feel like right now, like I’ve drawn two bright yellow lines down the middle of my life.  Some stuff gets to be on this side, some stuff on that side, and right know it’s kind of awkward.  Long term, though, it’s the same road.  It just looks different.  That’s all.

Falling In

Monday, August 29th, 2011

We had a small hurricane, tropical storm?  Yesterday.  Our area was mostly affected by flooding.  It seems like even the smallest of streams or brooks can cause big issues when filled to overflowing.  We left the house once yesterday to go visit some friends holed up at the church building (lots of neighborhood evacuations) and by the time we came back the little bridge by our house had been closed, and Cy’s “waterfall” had turned into a “chocolate waterfall!”

Here is Cy at the beginning of the summer with the “waterfall” at a normal level, and not filled with mud.

Here is the “chocolate waterfall!” yesterday.  They closed the bridge when the water touched it.

Today it was still much higher than normal, and muddy brown.  Lots of debris.  A few of the local farms were flooded pretty badly. Cy and I took a long walk to check on the chickens.  They were ok, and Cy heard the rooster crow.  It was VERY exciting.


“It’s really kinda fast!” he said.  We had to run across the bridge to see the stick we threw in go over the waterfall.  Usually we’re standing around for awhile waiting for it to mosey it’s way under the bridge and over the dam.

It’s amazing though, this storm made me realize that we are really moving into fall.  Much more quickly than I anticipated. I have orientation for school this week, I start my new job TODAY (more on that later), Cy starts his fall schedule (preschool! music class! swim lessons! time with La La EVERY DAY!) next week as well. It’s all changing. This fall is a different one.  Next month will be his third birthday.

Like I said, it’s all changing. Faster. Faster than it should? I don’t know if there is a should. We’re just going to roll with it. Can’t stop nature.

This was taken early last month.
And then this one this morning.

I think we’re ready!

Wrapped up in love and Spiderman.

Saturday, August 20th, 2011

I’ve been meaning to post pictures of Cy’s new room situation.  Keep in mind that I’ve never worked hard at coordinating furniture (we usually snag things that fit 3 criteria: 1) It fits a need 2) Cheap/Free 3) Real wood. So we’ve got a mismatch set of table, dresser and bed, and we REALLY NEED TO PAINT HIS ROOM.  BAD.  But I’m happy with how he and I set it up.  I let him have some more choices.  Not too many.  But you know.  Enough.

Mostly though, I’m proud of my Mom’s quilt.

Have I told you that my Mom is a quilter?  I legit one.  With a long arm quilting machine and a business bank account and such.  She started quilting long ago, and had to send quilts out to be finished.  Now she does them from start to finish all on her own, and they are luxurious and amazing.  Cy’s first quilt (sorry, I had a better link but the pictures died? somehow? sad!) was finished by someone else, but not this one!

She did this one, start to finish all on her own. (And many others, pieced by her and others.  You can mail her your tops if you want! She’s a finisher!) The fabric is Eric Carle Brown Bear fabric- which she is not allowed to sell because of copyright.  But lucky us! Because that means it’s all for her grandson.

She even included something secret just for Cy on the back…

Which, of course, just reinforced that La La knows her grandson. And reduced my guilt about allowing him to pick out Spiderman sheets at “Four Dollars.”  He loves them, and although they offend my sensitivities…I think it’s time for Momma to stand aside and let the little boy choose his own happiness.  And I still have the beautiful, soft brown sheets I chose to compliment the “Brown Bear” theme.  I’m SO READY for him to wet the bed.  I have LAYERS on there, a towel to absorb it deep inside the layers…and and extra set of sheets.  Yup.  Am ready…and freaked that he hasn’t yet…

The rest of the room?

The toy box, Penguin named Aristotle, and the library book bin. (Also, IKEA table and chair.)

(Apparently shiny?) Dresser (mine from high school), fold up Target-type bookcase, and pictures of friends and family that I let him tape on the wall himself.  The benefits of knowing you need to paint anyway!

Where the reading happens.  At least, the bedroom reading anyway.  It’s like a sport around here.

So that’s it.  My Bubbs’s room.  Where he sleeps soundly in no diaper, wrapped up in LaLa’s quilty love and in his “Fiderman” sheets. Seriously.  My baby is a child now.

Goat Named Taco

Friday, May 27th, 2011

I can’t even believe how much Cy is growing and changing lately.  It seems like all of a sudden all of the things we’ve been teaching him and talking to him about are all starting to grow in his mind, and he’s putting his own thoughts together.

For example, today we were driving and Cy dropped his car on the floor.  He said, “Mommy, get it please!” I said, “I can’t bud.  I can’t reach it.” He said, “Cy get it!” I said, “No buddo, we all have to stay buckled in our seats while we’re driving.” Cy says, “DEN STOP THE CAR!”

He’s also big into planning things.  If he doesn’t want to do something he’ll try to “reschedule” for later in the week.  For instance, “Cy! Time to come in for lunch!” Cy, “No! Um, eat lunch Tuesday!”

We brought him to a wedding tonight, and he charmed everyone at our table by singing Freire Jaques (is that how you spell that?) softly to himself while eating a peanut butter sandwich (that I packed for him because I know that steak or chicken would not be a viable option for him, picky eater).

There were goats at the wedding (have I said that I live in a rural area?) and he kept going over to the pen to feed them, and when one goat ate the other goat’s food Cy yelled, “Hey goat! No way! You be nice!”

There was also his desire to see the temple, which was awesome.  He loves to play the piano and sing, and I think that if he sticks with it and takes formal lessons as he gets older, that he’ll be better than me in no time.   He’s also starting to speak Spanish a little bit, and tonight we were driving home from the wedding and a little boy was sitting next to him (my friend’s son, they are from Mexico) and Cy said, “Um, I white.” I said, “Yeah, buddy, you are.” He said, “Hola brown.” (He calls the little boy Hola, even though he knows his name.  There was initial confusion about teaching him to say “hola” that’s just stuck…) Then Hola taught him the words for white and brown in Spanish, and Cy repeated them, and then Hola taught Cy the Spanish version of Freire Jaques, Frey Felipe.

When I got home I told my parents what Cy said, and how initially I was a little embarrassed.  I think that’s just a 90′s education coming back.  I went to school during a time that students were inundated with the whole “color blind” approach to social justice, when we were taught that noticing people’s differences was rude and “not PC.”  I think it’s different now, though.  Now we can notice the different colors of our skin or eyes or the different sounds of languages, and appreciate them for what they are.  Children are especially adept at comparing without adding judgment to their comparisons.  It was actually a pretty cool moment.

My parents told me that I was just about Cy’s age (2 and a half) when I met a friend of my Dad’s and said, “He’s a brown man!” I guess the guy thought I was pretty cool.  I wonder if Cy will share my interest in and affinity for other cultures.  It’s cool to see a part of myself in him.

Ok, I guess that’s enough of that.  I’ll now move onto what people REALLY want.  The pictures.  These were taken in the last couple of weeks, first at Thomas’s Day Out in Essex, and then today at the wedding we went to, after everyone shed ties and long-sleeved shirts and started walking goats around.

Cy getting ready to see Thomas in his cool shades.

Photo op!

Diesel 10!

A picture with too much sun.  AND THOMAS!

They had train tables everywhere, and in most cases the kiddos were fighting over the trains.  Here, though, there was some cute playing with a little girl whose shirt read, “He’s trouble” and had an arrow pointing at Cy.

For days afterward he said: “I gave Toppy Hat a HIGH FIVE!”

Cy yelled, “ALL ABOARD!” five hundred times. It was cute.

He hadn’t napped that day, so I got some cuddles on the train.

And…on to the wedding! (This was also a no nap day, as we fit in a bike ride in the morning. We are exhausted! I think we’ve done more fun stuff this past month than in our history as a family.  I’m burning out.  I foresee a backyard/low-key summer.  If the bear moves out.)

Cy, feeding a goat.

John and Cy, walking a goat. Named Taco.

Again, walking Taco.

And then they got to ride in a horse-drawn carriage. After the bride and groom, of course.

And…back to the goats…

We toasted the happy new family, and came home to bed!

Yup.

Thursday, March 31st, 2011

So. Lots of people are on baby number two.  Or three.  (Or whatnot.)

It’s giving me baby fever, yo.

Last week I just didn’t feel ready to have a baby again, yet.  But all of a sudden I’m starting to wonder.

I guess Cy named the stuffed animals that live in the living room Mommy, Daddy, and Cy.  Then we found little tiny one near them, put there by the La La fairy.

Forgive the grainy picture of the teeny bear representing my unconceived child.

And even though the timing is never ideal, I’m starting to lay awake at night going over names that end in Y (sorry, a fascination of mine) in my head.  And then tonight at dinner  John and I were discussing it (as we’re apt to do from time to time) and John said, “Well, Cy is part of this family.  We should ask him how he feels about it.”  So I turned to Cy and said, “Cy, would you like us to have a new little baby?”  And he said, “Ok! Baby Emi!”

And EMILY TOTALLY ENDS IN Y!

Sheesh.

So it’s time to get myself ready, I guess.  Get healthier, get fortified.  Get sorted.  Then, get pregnant.

Don’t get too excited people, those first things could take awhile.

Have you bee-zooed the snowman?

Friday, December 3rd, 2010

It’s come to my attention that Cy thinks it SNOWS snowmen.  Since he’s never been involved with snowman creation, but has seen plenty of TV snowmen and snowmen figurines around the now-festive house, he has some understandable confusion about their origins.  Whenever it flurries he runs to the window and looks up into the sky, “No snowman yet!”

Sigh.

We have one of those snowmen that sits in the fridge and sings about conserving energy and whatnot.  It’s annoying.

Cy loves it. (It only comes out at Christmastime.)  He’s been walking around the house with it, and has taken to dancing with it, and even giving it a bee-zoo.  A bee-zoo is what we call an Eskimo kiss. (It comes from watching this video in French.  I think it’s bisou in French.  But in my mind it’s bee-zoo.)

Fast forward to this conversation with John tonight:

Me: Cy’s been bee-zooing that fridge snowman.  And then he sticks the carrot nose up his nostrils.

John: Well, that means I’ll never bee-zoo the snowman again.

pause.

Me: Have you bee-zooed the snowman before this?

John: No.

Hmmmmmmmmmm……..

(This is the kind of entry you get when I should be writing my psychopathology paper.  Yay!)

Fairies

Saturday, November 6th, 2010

Me, at Walmart, perusing Fairies. A phone conversation.

Me: John! I don’t know how to pick out girl presents! (Subtext: They got Cy a REALLY FUN SUPER AWESOME gift for his birthday, I want to do the same for their little girl!)

John: What are you looking at?

Me: There are tons of Fairies! The 12 inch ones, the 6.4 inch ones, the 4 inch ones, and then itty bitty ones! Which one do I pick?

John: Does one of the sizes come with an animal friend?

Me: Looking intently through the different sized fairies. YES! The smaller but not smallest ones do!

John: There ya go.

(This might be funnier if you know John.  But WOW.  He’s got skills yo.)

What a cute party! Thanks for the cake!


Don’t forget to check out the Miracle Blanket giveaway, running through Monday!

Is your Mom this cool?

Friday, October 8th, 2010

How do YOU support breast cancer awareness? (PS I’m jealous.  She got her hair cut after I did today and now she’s cooler.)

HERE’SYOURONECHANCEFANCYDON’TLETMEDOOWWWNNNN

Saturday, August 21st, 2010

So. What was I up to this past weekend, you may ask? Well. Let me tell you:

REBA. BAM. (Sorry. That Bam got carried over from the Little Hotdogs post. CAN’T LET IT GO.)

I think it’s time to come out of the closet.

I love Reba. I love everything about this happy little redheaded woman, with all her songs filled with abused/neglected/recently-empowered women and also FANCY.

I started to watch her show when John worked nights in Utah. He’d get home from school, me from work? school? the details are hazy now…eat something and chillax, watch two episodes of Reba, and then he’d go to work til 11. I love Van. He cracks me up.

Hey guys, how ya doin’? Ah Reba’s green sweater.

Then, when I was pregnant and faced with a colonoscopy prep (TMI?) when I was just into my third tri-mester…and then it got called off because it was dangerous for the baby…I drowned my health-related anxiety in some sort of show honoring her career achievements. There were tons of country singers singing her songs, and it was awesome. (But I don’t like country music, ok?)

So, for our anniversary…my Mom and Dad surprised us with a night away and a date to see REBA! in concert. We stayed at a nice hotel and went to the concert on Friday night. It was amazing. I do love her, and I secretly hoped Van would show up and be funny. But he did not. But Barbara Jean did! They did a hysterical skit that had everyone rolling in the aisles (most especially a woman I nicknamed “Blondie” who was basically sitting on my feet due to the smallish nature of the arena, and who was recently divorced…or so her dramatic swaying to the “my love for you is dead” songs would indicate, and her mother, who started the night off as a perfectly respectable older woman and three beers later reminded me more of Lindsay Lohan plus forty years. It was kind of great). We were all horribly disappointed that Reba would leave the stage without singing Fancy. But she did not disappoint. After faking us out, she reappeared on stage in a red-sequined dress and sang her heart out one of the best songs EVER. Right up there next to Cher’s Gypsies & Tramps and Thieves. And Meatloaf’s Anything for Love. Which I can be found dancing to in the kitchen with my two year old any night of the week between 5 and 6pm. If you don’t believe me stop on by. Oh, and Toto’s Africa.

And for the record I love Bill Cosby, too. And I will not have a second child one second before John agrees to name it Cosby. Boy or girl.

BAM. (‘ll stop with that soon.)

Thanks Mom and Dad for watching Cy, and giving us a much-needed time out. And thanks Reba, for being freaking awesome. Because we needed that.

Rambling Update About My Life

Friday, July 16th, 2010

This week I’ve spent time in the mountains, at the beach, had a date night with my husband and a girl’s night out with some friends.  I’m not going to elaborate on the fabulousness, but let’s just say it’s been busy and new and nice! But on to the real subject(s) at hand…

So I’ve found out that when John is not in bed with me, I’m colder.  Not that we’re conoodling all the time…(I don’t know what that word means, actually) as a matter of fact I can not sleep when anyone is touching me…but even still.  Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

So John is once again at his residency.  And this time it will be a residency without time outs for funerals or other personal hardships, and there will be sunshine.  So here’s hoping he can actually relax, enjoy the retreat, and learn some stuff.  And that I won’t freeze to death in his absence.

I might be getting used to being on my own a bit more.  His first residency I FREAKED OUT.  I didn’t know how to be without him, however corny that sounds.  But this time, I’m still sad…but like I told my Mom, it’s good sad.  He’s somewhere good doing good things, I’m missing him because I love him and that’s not a bad thing, and I’ve got plenty of support and a wonderful kid to keep me busy while he’s gone.

And also some good news.

I got into my program.

What program? You may ask?  Well, due to my track record with life-plans, I didn’t give anyone a real heads up about this one.  I’ve decided to start a Post-Bac program to become a certified ESL teacher, secondary ed.  Yes, I know the pay grade.  I also know that I’m a) qualified (what? something a philosophy major can do?*) b) interested and c) passionate about this subject.  Also, with my feelings about my son and my role in his life, teaching seems the way to go.  It will allow me time with him, which I value pretty much above all else.  Means I might actually be able to have MORE children one day.  Ya think?  I’m not saying that there aren’t other jobs that will allow the same, but this one’s the one for me.  I’m pretty sure.

That said, if I don’t get financial aid, the dream gets to wait.  But I’m crossing my fingers and enjoying the getting in. (Also, the rest of my application needs to get there, they’re still waiting on a few things to make sure I’m not a crazy, letters of recommendation and stuff…but other than that I’m all good.)

Also, I also got the update that I am cleared to teach at a local private post-secondary ed school.  Adjunct, of course, but it could be a job! And I could get teaching experience! And it would be just awesome.  I’m ready to be put on the payroll, it’s just a matter of a class for me to teach.  Again, crossing my fingers that they’re not rolling in more experienced teachers in September.  They’ve indicated that there should be space for me, so yes.  September could be REALLY REALLY busy.  Or it could be a total letdown. Either way, I’m happy and hopeful right now.

And my son? My amazing Camper that I’ve stayed home for two years while practicing my own personal form of attachment parenting?  He gets a new “nanny,” AKA my Mom, who seems just as excited as I do about the impending change.  I think he’ll wear her out, (and hopefully vice versa) but I’m just peaceful inside thinking that I’ll be able to get back on track with work/school, and know that my Mom will love on my kid just as much as I will.  She’s already talking about a weekly schedule :) And it’s not like I’ll never be home.  It’ll just be a new…balancing act.

So yes, that is the update.  And now I shall go to bed.

*Anyone else catch the philosophy major dig in Eclipse? Yeah.