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A Whole Year

Saturday, August 2nd, 2008

One year ago today I woke up here, in this apartment, all by myself. My Mom and Dad and brother and I packed up my wedding dress and all our luggage into a rental car and drove down to Manti (here we are!)

where we checked into the Rose Cottage, a beautiful, beautiful bed and breakfast. It was amazingly beautiful- we all had our own room, and it was above the reception hall where we were to have our luncheon the next day.

When we got there I was anticipating FREAKING OUT. But I stayed calm…and as I remember I laid down and took a nap while waiting for John and his Mom to arrive in my car. It rained and thundered that afternoon- and I slept soooo soundly. That evening was nice- dinner and time with family, a trip to WalMart to buy our first “married” shampoo and conditioner so John could wash his hair the next morning. John dropped me off at the B&B around 11 and then went to his hotel. I took a bath and then crawled into the big huge bed and just stared, saucer-eyed at the ceiling until I fell asleep. I can’t believe it was only a year ago today.

Tomorrow will be the anniversary of this:

Check it.  I had a waist.  I can’t believe it’s been an entire year.  I hear that the first year of marriage is the hardest- and if that’s true- we’re set.  I think the best thing is that we’re simply not sick of each other yet.  We’ve spend a good chunk of of the year together- literally.  We’ve gone through classes and exams, jobs and the loosing of jobs, cars and the crushing of cars (NOT our fault), pregnancy (yes…I’ve been pregnant for most of our marriage) and sickness, invasive medical procedures for both of us, family happenings and changes, and a whole lot of other things in between.  I’ve gone from not even letting him see me blow my nose to having long conversations about the state of my bowels to see if we have to go to the emergency room.  Today we had an abbreviated “outing” to celebrate our anniversary because bluntly…I didn’t have the energy to really do anything elaborate or even too fun.  But all of that, I think it represents something very very real.  I know John has very specific guidelines with who he’ll call a friend.  Even as his wife…I’m not sure I meet the time requirement to be termed “friend” in his traditional way, but he is my best friend.  He is the person I believe over everyone else.  He is the first person that I go to when I need something or someone, and the first priority I have in making people happy or making sure everything’s ok.  Our relationship and our year have not been perfect, we’ve actually had a lot of things happen that have been rather difficult.  But all this morning I was just filled with pure HAPPINESS because of how complete life is because I found him to go through it with.  It’s pretty good stuff.  Here’s to year two :)

Oh, and if you’re curious about what we did today, well…it was pretty fun.  We started out with a trip to Hallmark…because I’m not driving myself places at the moment.  We got each other cards (we both picked a row and had to find something there, it was kind of funny and a new tradition, I think) and picked Camper up the cutest little bear in the world.  Then we went to lunch at Squatters where we sat outside and had a nice meal.  I was still feeling okish by then, so we went over to the bookstore to get our pre-appointed anniversary gift for each other.   An Atlas.  A driving atlas, to be specific.  We decided that for our paper anniversary, nothing would be more appropriate or symbolic than a map- for all the places we’ll go together.  Corny, ahhhhh.  We found another gift for Camper there…a book called “Hush Little Dragon,” sooo cute and funny.  (Don’t you love how Camper got more presents today than we did?)  Then we rounded out the afternoon with a stop at Marie Calendar’s for some pie- and then home to rest.  I spent most the morning just trying to be still so I could make it through the day, and I think I did ok.  I still can’t walk very far, and my back is currently telling me I overdid it…but we had to do SOMETHING for our anniversary.  I think it was a good day.  More of those to come, I’m sure.

Jonathan’s coming, we have to smoke all the hash.

Friday, August 17th, 2007

Yes. We are home again. The title refers to a conversation Jon, John and I had on the way home from the airport Wednesday night. John and I got home late Monday, and Jonathan flew back on Wednesday after midnight. He’s decided to stay in Provo after all- he’s continuing his job, got an apartment down the road, and is currently driving my car. I’m not sure how pot came up on the way home…but somehow it did. Probably during a conversation about hand-me-down kitchen items available now that John and I are rolling in the Bed, Bath and Beyond gift certificates.

We are currently in the process of home reorganization. Also called: give all John’s stuff a home. We’ve already got plastic bins with drawers and shelves…now John has the tedious task of going through bins and boxes and getting rid of trash and sifting all his belongings into categories. I have no idea if he knew what he got into marrying me. I wonder if I should have said something like, “Just so you know, before you commit, I have a special home categorization technique that requires everything to have a home with like objects. How do you feel about this?” I think it was all the Sesame Street as a child. As I look into John’s boxes all I can think is “one of these things is not like the other.” It has been really fun this week going and getting LOADS of stuff at BB&B (thanks to everyone for the gift certificates!) and putting all our presents away. Not gonna lie. LOVE presents. And although we’ve heard a lot of horror stories about getting duplicates of everything and having to go through major return-hassles, we’ve had no such luck. Everything everyone gave us was useful, one of a kind, and thoughtful. So, official thanks to follow, but THANK YOU to everyone for helping us get started and get our house full of sheets and towels and handy kitchen implements.

We went to IKEA yesterday and I got a desk, we got a bookshelf, and a few other odds and ends. I also got an AWESOME apron. And I totally think this is going to improve my desire and skill set when it comes to cooking. Whenever I mention this, John laughs. We did buy some chicken today, though, so I’m totally going to give it a try later. As we’ve been putting everything together and outfitting our home with all life’s little necessities, I had deja vu. I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from. I felt like this feeling of nesty, contented satisfaction was somehow not new. Then I realized: what I’m feeling is comparable to how I felt when outfitting Barbie’s dream house as a little girl. And if you knew anything about how much I used to LOVE Barbie, you’d know my level of joyousness going through this process. As for John, I’d ask him how he feels AFTER he’s done putting the stuff in his bins away.

So yes. We’re back to work on Monday. I can’t believe how quickly everything has gone. Looking back at my entries before the wedding- I was PRETTY nervous. I prayed incessantly for a thousand things: clear skin, that my dress would fit (and I could breathe), a light breeze outside of the temple so I wouldn’t die taking pictures, that I wouldn’t get sick to my stomach, that people would come, that our parent’s planning would all go well and they wouldn’t be stressed, that we wouldn’t miss our flights, that John’s friends and family would like me, that John and I’d still love each other after it all….I’m happy to report that God must REALLY love me, and understand his daughters, or maybe knew that I couldn’t handle too many stressful happenings, because I couldn’t ask for a more perfect wedding. We stayed in Manti- I woke up early (REALLY early) but I slept well the night before. We stayed at the Rose Cottage- which was so beautiful and comfortable. It’s a woman’s home, but she rents out the upstairs (three bedrooms, three baths, whirlpool tubs) and a reception/luncheon room. I got my hair done at about 7:30, met John and the temple at 9, and didn’t feel stressed or rushed one bit. Everything was within 2-5 minutes from where we were staying, and Manti = no traffic, no hassle, no stress. The temple ceremony was beautiful. I just felt special. I got a lot of attention from the ladies in the temple, who helped me get dressed and find where I needed to go. It was all just perfectly simple- and as I looked around I saw family and friends and knew I was in the exactly right place. Before I knew it, I was marrying John! And never even once did I have cold feet. It was perfect. Afterwards, we went outside to greet everyone that came (Lindsey Gage came and was one of the first people I saw when I exited the temple!) and sure enough- and cool breeze continued throughout the day in Manti, making picture taking pleasant and the afternoon traveling bearable. We had a great luncheon down at the Rose Cottage, and then headed back to Provo for the reception/open house. It all went as planned! Amazing! More pictures, receiving line, dancing, cutting the cake- the night just flew. John and I both said that it all seemed just perfect- even though we hardly got to see all the nuances that the family put into it. As we look at the pictures and talk to people, we realise how amazing the food was, how beautiful the decorations were, and all the little details that were brought together to make it just right. Even an Armadillo cake! I’ll have to get some pictures up in my gallery soon. I loved talking with all the people that came, met people that had “met” me through this site, (hello Jenn and Kelly ;) ) and yes, even being the center of attention for a bit. On my day, I REALLY felt like a princess.

So fast forward, spent the night in Salt Lake, flew out to Massachusetts and drove to Maine, and commenced honeymoon vacation. Maine was amazing. We stayed at the Morrill Mansion- charming. Very charming. It rained most of the time, and I can’t even tell you how happy that made me. We ate good food, walked around and went to fun shops- and looked at some of the schools in the area. It was quite relaxing. After Maine, we made our way back to Massachusetts to prepare for wedding celebrations, cont. We had a beautiful ring ceremony in Washington, Mass. in a little chapel my parents found. The day was started with hairdo’s for me + 5 bridesmaids, my maid of honor Auntie Paulette, and of course, Kayla, my cousin’s baby girl who looked too sad to be left out. After we got our hair done up, it was back to the house for honest-to-goodness My Big Fat Greek Wedding type chaos- complete with tuxes and shoes being strewn everywhere, and makeup done by my Mom, a la Bare Minerals (our new favorite)! Once we were all beautified, we drove to Washington. Once there, the ring ceremony started. It was a small crowd, but full of important people. Some of John’s friends from New Hampshire, my family from Connecticut, and my Scranton girls. Christine sang Push, by Sarah McLachlan. Hmmm…I can never spell her name right. John’s Dad spoke a bit about the temple, and the reason why it was so important for us to get married there. Andy (best man) ended up the flower boy, as his daughters who were the flower girls could barely manage to walk down the aisle with their bowling ball- flower arrangements. What was that florist thinking? Crazy woman! Sarah (Andy’s daughter) fell off a step after doing a little joyous dance (something to do with a pretty dress and tiara makes a girl want to dance) and Craig and Wesley were wiggly and had fun holding the rings. All in all- I say it was a SMASHING success. Perfect mixture of fun and meaningful. Then there was the party, where we danced our tushies off. We had the reception at the same Country Club that we had school dances at in high school. It’s across the road from my house. And as that ended- so did the wedding festivities. I truly feel like a girl who got it all. I am SO grateful to my Mom, and new Mom, and my new sisters for doing SO SO SO much work to get it all together.  I think the Dad’s helped a bit, too.  :)  I wouldn’t have changed a thing. Not one thing. :)

After that, we had a couple more days in MA, then flew back here to commence real life again. Now, as I’ve said, it’s time to set up our house, and enjoy our few more days of leisure before work starts, and then school starts, and the rest of our life starts. I’ve been a wee bratty for a couple of days, due to the heat, the mess in our house, and my CONSTANT hunger…whatever is up with THAT, but as we settle in, I’m starting to realise that I got a good one. A very good one. And I’m excited to be Mrs. Erin Hattaway.

We’ve got a few more days of hiding left…but we’ll be in the mix again soon. And for those of you that attended the wedding and I said we should do dinner sometime, I mean it! And if I didn’t suggest that to you- that must mean I didn’t like you very much. JUST KIDDING.

The Closest I’ve Ever Been to Getting Married

Tuesday, July 31st, 2007

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.Oh my gosh.

I’m getting married in THREE DAYS. Wowza. Today is girly day. My mom, Alicia, and I are all heading off to Seasons for some spa treatments. I LOVE Seasons. Things like this CAN be expensive…but if you only go all out one time, I think right before your wedding it’s appropriate. Before Friday we have a few more exciting to-do’s. We’re having Shower #2, to which mostly EVERYONE is coming. I think it’s going to be really fun to have everyone together in one room, just talking and eating and getting to know each other. I hope it’s fun, anyway! I hope we don’t throw a boring bash! Alicia and Megan did so well the first time, that we’ll probably just recreate some of the games they played. Maybe even both of them…we’ll see. We’ll talk it over at the spa today :)

So yes. I am a wee nervous. I am a wee aprehensive about all the things we have yet to get done. And yes, I am VERY very excited and can barely wait. I’m so excited that I’ve been sitting on the new Harry Potter for two days, hardly being able to concentrate long enough to get through two chapters. Oh well. Maybe on the plane.

Sooo soon!!

new templates and red bottlecaps

Monday, July 23rd, 2007

Hello to a new funky look for the website!  I was feeling something new, and when I found this template I KNEW it was perfect.  At least, until the day I figure out how to design my own templates…that will be exciting!  Nothing too exciting happening here, just running around visiting people and getting wedding stuff finished up.  John and I got our marriage license this morning :)  Yup, filled out the paperwork, swore before God and our country that we aren’t cousins, and got a cool keychain that says, “The First Bond of Society is Marriage.”   I was a little freaked (in that happy, panicky, wondeful way I sometimes get when thinking about the wedding) and had an interesting morning.  By afternoon, however, I was anxious to get home and go over my “wedding checklist” and track people down for the RSVP lists.  Let me clarify, I’m not nervous about BEING married, just about GETTING married.  Phew…nervous…but my Mom scheduled a spa mani/pedi for the two of us next week, so that’ll calm me down a little and make my hands and feet feel FAB for the big day.

In other news, John saved ALL his red bottlecaps for me, and now I have my own little plastic baggie of them for whenever I feel like I need a little sugary pick-me-up.  He’s a good one.

This Morning, or, Thi ‘smorning.

Friday, July 20th, 2007

So, this morning, the love of my life showed up before I came to work. I was getting myself together and talking to my Mom (currently residing with me) and I hear a happy taptaptap at the door (which is weird, no one ever knocks…) and then in pops John. He exclaims, “Everyone’s cars are in the way!” “I look at him incredulously. I mean, it’s about 8:15 am. He’s up, and showered, and apparently, FULL of energy. “What do you need?” “I’ve got SEVEN boxes!!!” So I hand him the keys, still kind of bewildered. And after some good morning hugging, he proceeds to move cars so he can bring in some boxes of books and other odds and ends, including tents and old violins. So there it is. The man is excited about moving in :) He’s been up all night thinking about the wedding and writing and I’m sure a myriad of other things…and then he came over bright and early to share his energy.


The only thing is…now we probably won’t have so much energy for date night…wondering what we’re going to do….

Maybe Some Eggs…

Thursday, July 19th, 2007

Ahhh!  We’re soooo close!  And by the way, if any of you were looking forward to a post that did NOT contain something about the wedding, yeah…I had that as a goal at one point.  But I give up.  As of tomorrow, we’re 14 DAYS away!  Seriously, that’s two TWO two weeks.  I think everything is in place- to tell you the truth, I’ve had very little to do in all of this.  I had the music selection, some choices to make, addresses to find, then there was the dress and the tux coordination, etc., but I think the Moms are doing all the hard stuff.  I am very, very grateful for Moms, and think that everything is going to be a lot of fun.

Speaking of Moms, yes, mine is still here.  She’ll be here now until she goes back to MA after the wedding.  Aside from having a wee trouble working out comfy sleeping arrangements (which I think we’ve fixed) it’s all been good.  She’s been going back and forth to the hospital every day, and made her final trip at about 4am this morning to say goodbye to her sister before she passed way.   She didn’t quite make it in time, but had spent all of yesterday with her, and felt good about the time that she was there.  She was able to have a bit of time with her before turning around and coming home, and after releasing pent-up feelings on my house in the form of cleaning and talking with me a bit (she and I are just alike, we just CLEAN when we’re nervous or sad or anything at all….) she laid down to take a nap and I left for work.

Aside from being rather exhausted today, and having my head absolutely swimming with arrangements for this, appointments for that, and worries about this, excitement for that, I’m doing well.  I think I’m due for some good dinner (maybe breakfast, eggs and sausage!) and an early night with a good book.  Perhaps I’ll convince my mom to take a spin around the mall with me and try to let John have some time to write, since tomorrow IS date night.  Haha.  We’ll see….

Blue River Runnin’ Slow and Lazy

Thursday, July 12th, 2007

It’s RAINING. It’s raining. It’s raining. I cannot tell you how happy this makes me. As I was driving Jonathan to work this morning (he works landscaping) I said, “What will you do if it rains?” I meant, “Will you need to be picked up because your job is an outside job,” but he responded thoughtfully and seriously, “I will prance around like a gazelle. One of the small, light ones.” And that’s what you get when you stick two New England kids in a desert and expect them to get by with cool showers and lots of lotion. Actually, that was my first tip off this morning. I woke up, and didn’t immediately run for the lotion in an attempt to rehydrate my hands and face. Sometimes I wake up feeling so dry I think if I move to quickly I’ll crack and fall on the floor in a little pile of dust. Ok, maybe that’s taking it too far. But, anyway, I’m very, very happy that it’s raining. I hope it lasts past noon. I’m wondering if it’ll even last an hour.

So yes, everyone, I picked up the dress. It is currently hanging on the wall in my bedroom on a hook specifically installed for this purpose. When we picked it up yesterday, I was soooo nervous. It’s definitely fitted. It’s definitely heavy. So- I’ve started a new “be strong enough to wear the dress” program. It sounds silly- but I need to walk more and go to the gym a little more (meaning at all) so as to not be huffing and puffing around in this thing. It fits- but I don’t want to Dorito myself out of a dress in a month- so I’m going to be a little better about the millions of chips and peanut butter cups I usually consume daily. But it’s pretty. So pretty. It makes me feel pretty. I’m very, very happy.

My Mom is also sending me out a print of the painting we’ve chosen as the theme for our wedding, it’s Chagall’s Three Candles. We’re going to use it at the reception (my mom also used it for the stamps on the invites…she’s a crafty one), but then just have it at our house when we’re done. It’s so beautiful, what a good mom, huh? She’s also sending me out my map of my mission area in England and some lace that we had framed when I got home last year. This home is going to get decorated, yet!

I have to say, for the record, that I feel like the luckiest girl in the universe right now. Too many good things, a fiance who I LOVE, who cracks me up and and makes me think and supports me in all of my desires and endeavors, a brother who loves me enough to brave utter dehydration to spend a couple months with me before I get married, parents who understand and love me, and support my life choices, AND, ON TOP OF ALL THAT my new expanding family is loving and supportive and wonderful as well. Oh yes, and don’t forget a cozy, attractive place to live and good friends (the soul kind) scattered from coast to coast. Don’t know what I did to get it so good, but I’m happy about it.

Ok. I think I’m done running at the mouth about how I love my life right now.

Wednesday Means We’re in the Middle

Wednesday, July 11th, 2007

So, on my way to work today- FOUR cops.  Where were they yesterday when I needed them??  John is sick today :(  I had a pretty uncomfortable stomach problem, a little bit on Sunday, mostly on Monday-  it felt just random enough to be some sort of bug, and now I think I’ve passed it on to the man that I love.  We’ve got to stop that!

So, last night, the salad went over just fine.  I saw some people eating it, and then I purposefully didn’t even look at it as I was leaving so that I didn’t have to know how good it ended up being.  The party was nice, and I did get to know a couple of new people. Mostly, though, I talked love and marriage with the girl who lives upstairs.  I think it bores people pretty quickly to hear me drone on and on about how I’m nervous about this, excited about that, can’t wait to go to Maine blah blah blah, but get two recently married/engaged girls together, and they can talk the subject to death without offending anyone.  Tonight I’m off to pick up my dress (hopefully, as along as it’s all set and ready to go, and fits well) and go out to dinner with Megan and Alicia.  We’ll finish planning the shower, and just have a little girl time.  It’s funny, I was explaining to Alicia on Saturday that at first when we’d go out, I’d think about John the whole time and really just want to go home.  Even if we ended up doing absolutely NOTHING, I just wanted to be near him.  Now, I feel like that compulsion has calmed down a bit.  Will I miss being around him tonight?  Yes, but I can still go out and spend some time with friends.  Plus (and this is actually important) it gives him time to write.   We’ve both expressed concern that by being together every second of every day (except for when we’re at work, of course) we limit his time and ability to concentrate on his writing.  If he wants to be a writer, he needs to write.   He’s got a new “secret” project going on right now.  He seems to be making pretty good progress, and that’s kind of exciting.   That is that.  So, I need to find ways to distract myself.  It’s good.  Progression.

So yeah, that’s the morning-time update.   Perhaps, more later.

Like the Dentist for my Face

Saturday, July 7th, 2007

SO. Today I woke up at a rather leisurely time, wandered around my room a bit, then took a bath. Saturday mornings has kind of become my bath time- keep in mind, I’ve never found baths relaxing. There’s always been too much going on, somewhere to go, or, if I’m really tired or not feeling well, I find that I’d rather just sleep. Since I’ve moved into this apartment and have had so much of my own space, I’ve found that it’s a nice way to ease into a Saturday morning. After seeing John for a second, I ran off for an afternoon with Alicia. I got a facial for the FIRST time ever. We’ve been going to a salon/spa every few weeks to experience new things. It was quite interesting. The aesthetician Meagan had a bunch of tools that reminded me of the scrapers they use in the dentist’s office. She warned me that it might be painful (she always says that) but it didn’t hurt at all. I really loved all the scrubs and lotions, and the “extractions” weren’t anything to worry about. Hopefully that’ll give my face a nice clean up before the wedding.

After that, we went down to Coldstone, Alicia had a starving student card that let us buy one get one free- so we had some ice cream for lunch. We talked a lot about the bridal showers we’re planning- it was fun to see it all coming together. I’ve never had anyone plan a party just for me. Actually, I’m pretty sure my Mom planned my b-day parties when I was a kid, but since I’ve gone old enough to take control of such events, I’ve usually been involved in most aspects of what ever is going on. It’s going to be fun to just go and see what Alicia and Megan (the sister, not the aesthetician) are putting together! We’re going to have TWO events, one shower for all the locals- and then another one for all the people who have to travel a bit to get down, or up, or across to get here. We’re waiting until a little closer to the wedding for that one.

So, all in all, a good day so far. We’ll see how the rest of it goes.

Sweet Land of Liberty

Tuesday, July 3rd, 2007

If I were a Queen on the Chessboard of my Google Calendar, my Wedding would be just a zigzag away. Yesterday, it was a straight shot. But, anyway, officially- we’re a month away. Crazy stuff, huh? Yesterday at work everyone kept saying, “You’re in the month range now! How are your feet?” So, for the record, feet are great.

So, it’s feeling like a Friday. I wonder why….oh yeah! We have tomorrow off! I love having a grown-up job that’s NOT retail that allows me to actually celebrate holidays. We (meaning John, Jon and I) plan to go up and hike Timp Cave. John got us tickets for a tour of sorts. It sounds like it’ll be cool, well, very hot, and then very cold. But I’m excited, seems like the perfect 4th activity. Maybe on the way home from work today I’ll brave Harmons and get some hotdogs and hamburgs for our “contact grill,” and any other festive food- if they’ve got any left at this point. Then we’ll probably try to find a place to watch the fireworks. We’re thinking about the horse trail behind our house, we can walk to it. That’s going to be a lot of climbing stuff tomorrow- that’s for sure.

So yeah, I haven’t been feeling like updating the last couple of days- not sure why. I think it might be because I had a bit of a sickie beginning to the weekend, and then just felt rather tired over the rest of it. It was nice, though, we got a few things done here and there. We finally got out to IKEA, where I found the dresser of my dreams. (medium brown) It’s short, but long, and has six really huge drawers. I thought, “This is great! I can have half, and John can have half!” Well…we got it home and set it up (not too bad a task, but I was on the phone with my Mom for half of it…) and I started filling my half…and half of John’s half, and the other half of John’s half…SO, we’ll need another dresser in medium brown. But they’re so affordable at IKEA, so it’s ok. I told John I’d make room for him in there, and I COMPLETELY intended to, but he said not to worry. So it’s official, I have more room for my things that I’ve had in years. I think I’m spoiled, just a bit. It’s a nice feeling, setting up our apartment. It’s lucky we have similar tastes, huh? I called my Mom to tell her what we got at IKEA, the dresser, two clocks, a cool ice cube tray, and a bag of chips. All for around $200. Her reply: “Wow! All that and a bag of chips?” Yes, this is my mother. Haha.

In other news, we also had a bit of a crispy day in our neighborhood last week. The field across from our house caught on fire, and with the dry conditions (meaning no rain, ever, ever, ever) the blaze went up the hill and into the mountain. When I say it was across the street, I mean ACROSS THE STREET. Our house was filled with smoke for a couple of days- it was kind of gross. It was scary, too. There were helicopters trying to contain the flames, and the fire crews didn’t leave for a few days. A few still lurk around just in case. Apparently it came close to some homes, but everything turned out ok. People were evacuating their animals- but I don’t think anyone got hurt. I guess it got started from a spark off a lawn mower, or something. Interesting…I had never seen anything like that before.

Also, and I’ll let John spread the word on this one, we’re going to be in a movie. You’ll probably be able to buy it at WalMart for $12.99 next year sometime. I’m pre-embaressed. Just so you know.